Day 10 - It's Not Even Your Birthday, But Here It Goes

Thankfully, I have a quite few friends that I cherish, but for today, these two people suddenly popped up inside my head. I rarely praise my friends because I feel... uncomfortable? or shy? or?? But these two are not my loyal-est fans so I pray they wouldn't notice when I write something about them.

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A. One of the kindest human beings who swears a lot

People say that high school moments are the best. High school was fun indeed, but mine was not that gracious as what people would tell. Still, I’m thankful because I met wonderful people. One of them is her.

I met her on my first day of school. Back then, I didn’t know anyone while others had at least a friend to talk to. Then I met this person. Our eyes met and we smiled at each other out of formality. But I could tell that she’s a very nice person. Time goes by and we became close. We’ve been friends for, around 8 years, and I couldn’t be more grateful for her presence. She’s very kind, but fun. My the go-to person every time I have some random plan on my mind. She doesn’t tell anyone everything but she could tell me things that bothered her, and it always feels nice when someone trusts you. She never let people walk over her, but still managed to be kind. Things that I’m lack. She’s a free spirit. She doesn’t care what other people say and always continues to do what she likes. I can joke around and she took it lightly. She's the best listener one could ever ask. She’s strong, dependable, and considerate. I envy her spirit. We used to have endless conversations. Nowadays, I don’t talk to her 24/7 or report to her at the moment every time I feel down, but the best thing is, we don't grow apart.

B. One of the sweetest human being and the most annoying person in the world (Dina ver.)

I thought the fun was over after high school. But thankfully I made friends with a lot of wonderful people (you know who you are), and randomly, I befriended this person. I didn’t pay attention to this person at first, but something brought us together. Then I was shocked because I met a 70% male version of me. We had a lot of commons, and he’s very considerate. I guess that’s what makes us close. He’s confident with himself, he never let society take control of him. He ends toxic masculinity. My other go-to person. He also doesn’t care about what others might think of him as long as he’s happy. We laughed a lot mostly because I'm funny or because of his lacking sense of humor, and I jokingly insulted him a few times but he also took it lightly. He taught me how to express myself properly. For the first time in my life, I could share my concern (& complaints) with the person that related to it, and he listened. Every time we have this 'bad blood', we always find a way to solve it. It is nice to realize that I can admit my ugly feelings that I tried my best to suppress, and the people I share it with (which in this case is the cause of my ugly feelings) acknowledge my feelings. He’s very sweet and annoying at the same time. Also, his love language is giving gifts so it’s a win for me (and his other friends).

They’re quite similar since every time I look at them, they spark joy because they’re comfortable in their own body, and I envy them for that. Surprisingly, I can be myself around them, my truest self, and they wouldn’t judge. They might respond to me, but they never judge. They’re full of positivity towards life and it’s a beautiful thing to watch. Not that positive, they’re humans, after all, so you might find them bringing the bad vibes, but still, I like the way they think. The way they cherish their friends, the way they respect their friends and the way they respect themselves.

I always find comfort when I’m around them. They lowkey taught me people are born differently with their lane. Life is not a race, so take a deep breath, and relax.

So, thank you for your positive impact on my life. Hopefully, I can return your favor, someday.

Bintaro, 16 October 2020

With love, D